An encouraging verse sent by a friend...Psalm 73:26 "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

I grieve for this family, but their story has given me another reminder to thank God. It's interesting b/c God has been reminding me to "Give thanks in all things", even discouragement and feeling short on perseverance. I so want to be healthy and living life fully again, but I wonder if living life fully has nothing to do with physical capacity and more to do with the heart. I can see this with my mind, but I think my heart has a long way to catch up. I don't feel it. (Ann Voscamp's article on March 3, A Holy Experience, really hit home with regards to giving thanks. ) The last 13 weeks have felt REALLY long, probably mostly because they fall so short of my expectations. [Side note - The cardiomyopathy continues to yield weird, scary symptoms. I'm living in the moment reminding myself that God is holding my health in His hands. He knows my body and what it needs; He will reveal what's going on in His perfect timing. I guess I'm just realizing that I have a long way to go.] However, I have so much to be thankful for...a healthy baby who I can nurse and brings all of us such joy, FAMILY, friends whose actions remind me again and again that they have my back, a husband who has really had a servant's heart for months now, kids who are older and can be helpful and are really such good "Big Sister/Brothers"...and laughter with them...the list could go on and on. God is good, faithful, and He meets us where we're at, regardless of how I feel. TRUTH.